Sunday, January 7, 2007

Wunderkind

God has been teaching me who I am. He has gone to extreme measures to make sure I understand. There is no denying that God has called me. He has called me His own. I recently read the book The Supernatural Ways of Royalty by Kris Vallaton. It stuck something deep within me. I have lived all life up to now believing that I was a fraud, a fake, an outsider, soon to be found out, that I was truly lacking. I was saved But chosen, royal? That was for someone else. As I read this book God began whispering softly, "This is you." I began to embrace this identity. I wanted to be royal, I wanted to be a princess. Who doesn't? But God didn't stop with this divinely placed book I found in the front seat of my car (with sugar cookies, yum, courtesy of my secret sister) but He has pursued me most romantically and diligently. He will not be deterred. Last night watching The Incredibles with my daughters, God spoke to me through this movie. Helen Par aka Elastagirl tells her children, "Your identity is the most important thing you have, protect it." How many times have I allowed the enemy to dictate what i have believed about myself. More than I can count or want to remember. God spoke to me through this movie and told me to guard my identity. People may not like that I call myself royalty and will live a blessed life, and I know the enemy won't, but that conflict makes me no less royal. Did God stop there? No! During service this morning, during worship God bowed before me in front of a room full of people and presented me with a beautiful tiara. He told me all He had was mine. And all I am is His. He called me royal. (For those of you wondering how that happened, He did it through a person. Which was just as amazing to me because he spoke to this person's heart to buy said tiara and step out in faith and do something that seemed strange to her natural mind, all for me to be honored) Then after church I was given another gift from the Lord through a person which told me the Lord said, "You are my worth" How amazing is that. I, who have felt unworthy almost my whole life, am God's worth. And He has gone to great lengths for me to know that I am worthy, holy, beautiful, chosen, deserving, mighty, royal, lovely, captivating etc. etc. That is the kind of God He is. And those things are true. This series of events are an answer to a prayer I have been praying in my search of finding out my destiny. "Show me what you think of me" That was the prayer. I encourage you to pray the same thing. You will be awestruck. I was. So I will end this blog with an excerpt from a song that has touched my heart and speaks of who I am.

I am magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
And I live the envelope pushed far enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to serve, destined to roam

I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
And I am pioneer naïve enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne
Destined to seek, destined to know

I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment
I am a wunderkind
I am a groundbreaker naïve enough to believe this
I am a princess on the way to my throne

Wunderkind by: Alannis Morisette

2 comments:

ericaprosser said...

God is speaking about identity! Look what i read last night (from The Sacred Romance):
"Identity is not something that falls on us out of the sky. For better or for worse, identity is bestowed. But far more important, we draw our identity from others- IF and HOW we affect them....
"When we live with so little love (talking about the kind the world gives), we will grasp onto what we do recieve in a way that becomes defining. Those moments may not reveal our true identity & calling, but they're all we've got....
"If it is true that our identity comes from the impact we have on others, then our deepest and truest identity comes from the impact we've had on our most significant Other. Listen to the names He has given us: "No longer will they call you Deserted. ...They will be called the Holy People, the Redeemed of the Lord; and you will be called Sought After."
"In other words, WE are the ones to be called Fought Over, Captured and Rescued, Pursued. It seems remarkable, incredible, too good to be true. There really is something desirable within me, something the King of the universe has moved Heaven and Earth to get."

Wow, huh? That's who I am and who you are Francesca. Wunderkind, indeed.

Jennifer said...

I didn't really know where to put this because it's not really a comment about this particular entry but about the picture you have on here. Billy is totally cut out! If that photo was on The Enquirer front page, the headline would be, "Hot young actress, Francesca (no need for a last name because you are already so famous) with obscure man" I have no idea what the point is of this comment...anyway, just sharing my thoughts!