Come On!!!

I am so excited. I can't wait to see the next thing God does. I feel like we are all being launched into our destinies. We are all coming to a new level of maturity. We are all having a spirit of expectancy. I am so excited. There are some awesome things on the horizon.

1) REVIVAL - no explanation needed.

2) Trip to California - Me and a few are praying for God to make a way for us to go to a writing conference at Bethel in June. I feel called to write books and this will be an incredible tool.

3) New God-confidence - I cannot explain how I feel. I have a new confidence. I feel different on the inside, but soon everyone will see it on the outside. I used to look in the mirror and hate what I saw. I just don't feel that way anymore. I feel confident. I can stand in front of a room of people and not feel inadequate. God is awesome.

4) Marriage - I have always loved Billy and I feel for the last 5 years or so we have had a good marriage. But now . . . come on. I am crazy about him. I love him so much. I love our marriage. And I think he loves the new found confidence.

5) Supernatural - I am eagerly and anxiously waiting for signs and wonders to be an everyday occurrence.

6) Destiny - I am so pumped about everyone walking in their destiny to a greater degree.

7) Financial Favor!! - I am excited about financial favor coming our way. I am excited about being debt free. I am excited about really being the giver instead of the receiver.

I am sure there are more. But here are a few things I am so excited about. What about you?

12 steps...

I have a confession to make. I have to come clean. They say the first step is admitting you have a problem. I am an addict. I am addicted to the presence of God. I can't get enough. I will do anything to get it. I will lose all my pride and become undignified. I have to have it. And do you know what? I don't know how I lived all these years on religion and duty. How I lived with such a sparse touch from Jesus. I just know that there is no going back for me. I have to have Him. So if you have lived a life addicted to religion, here are 12 steps for to be free.


1) We admitted we were powerless with religion—that our lives had become unmanageable.

2) Came to believe that God, who is bigger than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

3) Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, in entirety.

4) Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

5) Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

6) Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

7) Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

8) Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.

9) Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.


10) Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

11) Sought through prayer and meditation and acts of radical obedience contact with God, reserving nothing, praying only for knowledge of His Will for us and the power to carry that out.


12) Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to people full of duty and religion, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

You know #8 caused me to pause and think. How many people have I wounded with a life of religion. Because I felt that heaviness of law, I put it on others. Lord forgive me. You can be free of religion too. I pray you have a new addiction that no amount of steps can break.

(These really are the 12 steps for an alcoholic, edited by me.)

What to say?

There is so much I would like to say. There is so much in me I would like to come out. But I am finding it hard to articulate what has happened in me this weekend. I could say it was good and that would be like saying that I think my husband in neat. It would sound trite and not even touch the surface of the deepness that is on the inside. I have seen the glory of God. I have heard Him clearly. I have been empowered and propelled into my destiny. I have forged bonds stronger and more solid than before. I have had a change of mind, a change of heart, an impartation of life changing faith. I have had the fear that has gripped me for most of my life broken off. I will embrace the greatness within me. I will embrace the destiny before me. Things that have plagued me for YEARS are gone. I know it on the inside, and soon everyone will see it on the outside.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” --Marianne Williamson

No longer will I shrink back or play small. No longer will I apologize for the greatness within me. That is not arrogance. It is the glory of God on the inside coming out.

Catch-Up!

Well, let's see, I am feeling SOSOSOSO much better. I cannot tell you how much last week stunk. Not only was I sick with strep, I found out that the world did not stop for me. I still had to cook, clean, bathe children, vacuum floors, wash sheets etc. No matter how bad I felt in the morning, or how much I wanted to take a nap, there were still 2 or sometimes 4 little munchkins (possible 5 if you know what I mean) who needed me. I think there should be a Joshua anointing for sick mothers. We pray and the sun stands still. Well, I guess that would work, the bible didn't say the people stood still. He just gave him some extra time. Hey, sometimes I could just use some extra time. But, Kathy's message was timely and encouraged me. So today I will catch up on all the stuff that suffered last week.

Please Pray!

Please pray for me today. I have had some pretty crummy symptoms since Monday. I have been coming against them. All I know is that I need to be well and SOON. I don't have the time for this kind of nonsense. So please pray for me today. Thanks.

Scandalous!

*To see the Glory of God like never before.- Show me your Glory!!

This was one of the things I was believing God for in my last post. I want to revise this. While I do want to see God in all His glory, there is something else I want more.

*I want a mad, passionate, scandalous, unending, unquenchable, head-turning, fanatical, fiery, consuming, crazy love affair with Jesus. Doesn't that sound sacrilegious. Exactly!!!

Favor

By now we have all probably heard that May is a special month of favor for God's elected. Well, I am God's elected so I am expecting HUGE things to happen this month. This is what I think we should do. We should keep a record of all the things that happen this month. From the big to the small. The miraculous to the mundane. And at the end of the month post them. I believe it will be a faith increaser. I have some big things I am believing for also. I have big expectations.
Here is a few of my believing God for list: (in no particular order)
*Debt Free
- School loans, cars, everything.
*Supernatural results from my diet and exercise.
- Been working hard and seen little if no results, very frustrating
*Financial Increase for Billy's Business.
- Sales, Sales, Sales
*Dream Home.
- In God's timing
*To see the Glory of God like never before.
- Show me your Glory!!
*To find Transcriptionist jobs so I can earn money from home.
- Finished school, Yay, now need jobs
*Healing of knee and toe.
- Skating incident and a weird toenail thing, yuck.
*Poverty Mentality to be broken completely
- There has been a large measure of freedom, but I want it all.

Now if God wants to do these all in May that is fantastic, if not the sooner the better. I will wait on the Lord.

Summer Vacation!!!!!!

I am so excited. August 18-23 the Hafner family and the Park family (minus April :() are going on VACATION!!!! We have rented an awesome house on South Padre Beach. Here are some pics of it.


As you can see it is right on the beach. This is the view from the balcony off the game room.

This is our own private pool. It is called a mood pool. At night it changes colors: pink, purple, blue! How cool is that.
Here is the 12 person kitchen table. We are going to have lots of fun meals around this.
Here is just one of the many beds in the place. It has four bedrooms and about 12 beds!
This is the game room. Separate from the living room. It has DVD players, video library, PlayStation, games, music library. The house also has a BBQ grill, full kitchen, and tons more. The lady was really nice and she didn't mind our thousand kids. I think this is going to be a vacation our kids will never forget. I am so excited. What vacation plans do you have for the summer?