I have made a decision. Before talk of a new baby came into view, I had a plan. This plan included these things: lose weight and get healthy, go to school and start working some, be more involved with ministry, become excellent at housed stuff and be intentional with my children. I have decided that this talk of having a baby is a distraction. That sounds so terrible. I know. I have battled the feelings of guilt. But I feel like there are some things I am supposed to be doing now and having another baby would throw me off track. I also know that my time is spread thin to my children and another baby would just take more time from the children I have. I am not saying I will never have another baby. Just not now. I feel good about this. I want to offer good things to my family. I feel like I have been a baby factory for 10 years. I want to be the woman God intended me to be. My kids are not the reason I am not, but as we know, babies demand all of you. So this is my decision. After explaining my heart to Billy, he agreed. So on with the plan.